12/29

Steph, Katie, and I lived in a house with three boys, but it was sort of separate, like they lived in the back and we lived in the front. The boys were a mixture of lots of boys so I can't really identify them. There was also a cafe in our house or right next door basically. I must have been hungry at night because I kept ordering food in my dream. Also there was a weird tree with some boards or something in my dream.

12/28

It was Halloween again. It was an entire school and each school group (like baseball team, dance team) were dressing up as something and there was some ploy to play a trick on who knows who. So imagine hundreds of teenagers running around in costumes, up the stadium, through the halls, etc. Then someone was like we need to be organized! And it kind of reminded me of the Nazis. It ended with me wondering where the Halloween party was. I remember one was at the Rock Gym.

12/27

I was at this party but I wasn't having fun so I left. Then there was another party and this weird organized group was either playing music, or it was a sports team, or something strange. We were dressed in costumes, like fancy 80s outfits. Then people were being dumb and there was a car wreck, and a bus wreck, and a train wreck. Uncle Shawn was in the car wreck, and the EMS piled them all on top of each other. He kind of woke up and shook himself off, and then raised his eyebrows and left. There was another party next door to me (I lived in the bathroom) and I was sick of it so I kicked everybody out. I remember Will Campbell was at the party, and maybe Kevin Hernandez? Then I was with my dad and we were surveying the wreck and I started crying and couldn't stop and no one else cared.

12/23

I can feel my dreams slipping away from me. I fall into a dream cycle; half the time I remember and dream like crazy, then I don't remember one for a long while.

12/22

I am re-reading a book from my early adolescence, Bloomability. There is a mean girl in it and the school is very expensive.

I don't remember details of this dream, only that me and the friends at my school were stressing about school being expensive.

I also listened to NPR/bad news about the economy so that probably also added to the dream.

12/21

I was at work, but I told Connie that I had to go buy something. I had to go by my house because I forgot my wallet. So I left, it was about 4pm. I went to my house, and no one was home, so I thought. I went in all the rooms to check if people were there, and there was a girl in Katie's room. I didn't recognize her in the dream, but I guess she was a friend staying there. So I went to the store, but it took a long time because I got the wrong thing of something. When I finally got out, it was already 6pm. I was upset because I missed all of work and of course thought they would be mad at me.
Then, Amber Karley really wanted to go to the Trail of Lights and was really upset, so I ended up trying to go there, but it was a flurry of frantic searching. When I came home, all these rock banders and skateboarders were outside my house and it was weird. Then me and some friends went to a club to see a band and I saw a bunch of my high school teachers there, like Ms. Telley. They were all dressed up and I felt dumb because I wasn't wearing makeup.

12/19

I had a dream that both my grandpas died in a weather-related incident- fire. And both my parents were sitting around talking about being fatherless.

12/18

Last night I had a dream that I had to take the ACT. I never took this test in high school and will probably never have to take it. Katie Hathaway, Brady, and David were in this dream. Brady was dragging his guitar around for some reason. We had to take a bus to go take the test. Katie had just gotten back from Mexico and she didn't do very well. I did really well, so obviously this was a dream and not real life.

12/17

I dreamed about my dead cats- Fluffy and Blacky. I think because when I babysat, the woman's black cat was hanging around me.

12/17

Part of my dream was about Whitney, my old roommate I didn't get along with. We saw her on campus and she asked to hang out and I said I was really busy over the holiday...
My family was in this dream, too.

12/15

I must have had to go to the bathroom really bad, I kept having dreams that I was peeing,,, a lot.

Early December Dream

I had this dream a while ago; I can't really remember when.
It was at the University of Oregon, where Liz goes to school. I'm not friends with her anymore, but since it ended badly, it means I have to deal with a bunch of dreams with her in them. Even though it was a random campus, there were a bunch of people I knew going to school there. Random people- my sister's old friends, a close friend of mine, can't remember who, and even more random people like Daniel Moser.
It was raining, there were trees growing in the building. I remember walking by Liz at least a few times, seeing an old teacher of mine, and telling Liz, "I'm not here for you."

12/7

I have had a dream for the past two nights that I can't find or don't remember to take my anti-depressants. If you stop taking medication, you can get really sick or depressed, even suicidal, and the doctors have warned me of this multiple times so I guess I am very worried about it now.

11/19

I had a horrible dream that people were gassing a building. The building was sort of like an auditorium with bleachers and the people were sitting in specific spots. I stayed until the end trying to convince people to jump out because it wasn't high so I knew we could catch them. The last people I convinced were Mindy Rosenberg and Julie Pak. It was very sad and strange.

11/18

It was Halloween or Disney party and I was sad because my costume sucked. The weirdest people were there. Amber, Emily, Jill, Sherri and Brent, and also Craig. I thin k my dad was also there. And I was like, uhhh should I drink? Brendan and Brian were there, and Perry. Brian was complaining about having no beer. The party was hosted by their crappy friends.

I had a crazy dream last night and I wish I could remember what it was... it was something very out of character for me. Not something I usually do...

a few dreams from Oct 27-Nov 1

I dreamed that Perry brought Liz over to my birthday party and she was trying to act normal, but also provoking me, like "What, why can't I be here? What, I'm nice now. What are you going to do?" It was strange. Liz is a friend that I had a falling out with in March of this year, and although I don't miss her, I am struggling with coming to terms with the situation and need some resolution. She has been in my dreams lately (I think this is third dream in the past few weeks) and it seems I am trying to confront the situation.

I dreamed that Andrew Foley deleted me as a friend on facebook and I was so surprised! Liz's brother deleted me, so I think this might be in relation to that fact, and I was just mixing up people. It was one of those things that doesn't really matter, it's not like the person is your bff, but it's kind of bothersome, like "What's wrong with me?"

I have recently elongated my throws in frisbee. I dreamed that I was showing my captain, friend, and roommate my throws, and all I could do what taco the disc. Then this ended up happening in practice the following day. Not on the same scale, but it was still irksome.

Oct 27

I read Cornelius Eady's You Don't Miss Your Water: Poems. The poems are all about his relationship with his father and his feelings and thoughts surrounding his father's death. One poem in particular, the title poem, stood out to me. Particularly the line about his sister dreaming about having a chat with her dead father. I related this to Perry, although Perry's father was not a jerk like Eady's father. I dreamed that night that my professor made me read this particular poem aloud in class and I started crying afterward.

The following day in class, she did in fact ask me to read the poem aloud. She said I read it very sadly. I told her on Thursday about my identification with the poem.

Let's Begin

The past couple of weeks I have been a dream craze, having a few dreams a night. I dream in realistic blurbs. Sometimes they correctly foreshadow future events (usually on a small scale). Someone told me that the content of our dreams sometimes alludes to what we are ready to confront in our lives. For this reason, I am beginning my dream archive. It is my hope that this can become a place for others to share their dreams and possibly gain insight by doing so. I think that just by journaling my own dreaming experiences, I will come to helpful realizations.